so really...what would happen...

if i could actually love the way that jesus loves?
if i could actually live the way that jesus lived/lives?

misty edwards wrote this song about the "inside-outside-upside-down kingdom" of our God, and it's so true. God runs His kingdom in a truly non-worldly way. It makes no sense to all the humanness inside me.

here's the words:

I wanna be with You where You are...

I wanna be with You where You are...

and You're the servant of all...

Cause I'm in love with a King who became a slave

I'm in love with a God who is humble

and you gotta go down... if you wanna go up.

and you gotta go lower if you wanna go higher and higher.

and you've gotta hide... and do it in secret

if you want to be seen by God

'Cuz it's the inside-outside-upside-down Kingdom

where you lose to gain

and you die to live

I wanna be Your lover... so show me how to go lower

For in the depths I will find You... where You're serving my brother

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it's true, isn't it? i want so desperately just to be where Jesus is. He's my King; He's my love; He's my savior; He's my brother; He's my friend. And where will I find Him? in the depths... in the lowest places... in the places where humans hate to go... in the most hopeless and lonely places... and what is He is doing? He's humbling Himself... going low to be raised up, and to raise up the lowly with Him.

I know that to be my story--this is how He called me by my name... He came into the depths where my heart was and spoke to me. so why is it so difficult for me to dive in and join Jesus in His work? I mean, He's invited me in. in fact, He wants me to be where He is. and so often, He will call us into or in the midst of the hardest and most difficult situations... in the dirt of this life... because that is where He is working. that is where we will find Him. because He is the Healer, and He has come to bring freedom to the captives.

so if i want to be with Him where He is, and He's the servant of all, where does that leave me? why am i not selling all that i have to buy that field? sell myself out to serve others? give myself away to serve others? to show love in the form of humility like Jesus does?

WHO is a God like ours? who runs an inside-outside-upside-down Kingdom, where you have to lose to gain and die to live?
WHO is a God like ours? who declares that you must bow down to be exalted?
WHO is a God like ours? who will literally give everything away to show Love to those who despised Him?
WHO is a God like ours? who calls us to do the same...

GOD, it makes no sense to my critical, human brain... praise GOD that Your wisdom is not of this world. praise GOD that You make no sense to this world!! You're amazing. You make no sense to me. and in that i rejoice!
God, challenge us. take us to be with You where You are...